about 24 hours

April 24, 2007 erinstine

Is how long it takes me, apparently, to get over it when someone is terribly ugly and hateful towards me.  I would like to get that down to more like 24 minutes, but it’s going to take some work.

Yesterday afternoon someone came in and unfortunately I did not recognize him.  If I had, I would have remembered our last uncomfortable encounter and would have kept right back on walking past the desk.  Instead, I attempted to help him and make a point I believed to be correct and a few moments later, was left stung, confused, and rethinking each move I had made.

The thing is, I understand in a general way why there are angry people in the world.  I understand that it is convenient for people to assume things about me in particular.  I even understand why my presence might bother certain people.  However, it always sends me spinning when that anger is actually verbally directed straight at me, with no or very little attempt to hide the contempt.  I guess I think/hope that if the angry people actually interact with me, they would just have to begrudgingly realize that I’m not a jerk and that I’m trying.  They don’t have to like me, but they can accept that I’m not actually the devil.

The other thing is, my feeling is that he had already made up his mind about me, and when you do that, when you decide that somebody is stupid or a bitch (or both), everything they do you’re going to somehow be able to use that to prove your point.  There is nothing I can do with this person that will change his opinion of me.   And I know that.  I do.  But it doesn’t stop me from replaying the interaction in my head, and coming up with all these brilliant things I should have said, or ways to avoid him in the future.

For about 24 hours.

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3 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Alyssa  |  April 25, 2007 at 10:22 pm

    Dude, you are SO neither stupid nor a bitch…sorry that you had such an awful experience yesterday! I understand though how it is hard to put such a bad experience out of your mind.

  • 2. Bryan  |  April 26, 2007 at 1:17 am

    “Time wounds all heels.”–John Lennon

  • 3. Ryan  |  April 27, 2007 at 2:23 pm

    Mean people suck. The fact that some people won’t ‘get’ you is a part of life. Though it’s a tough one to swallow most of the time. It’s hard to be a person that cares about people, and then just shut your feelings off when someone treats you this way. In the least you should take away from situations like that knowing that YOU are the better person and other people, those people, still have quite a bit of maturing to do.

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